mwaaa?

i'm almost afraid to blog again after having left it unattended for so long. but oh well, time to get back on the horse (at least until i moer off again). life at the moment is hectic. so hectic in fact that i find myself quite confused, and stoopid unanswerable questions knock on my cranium walls: who am i really? what am i doing with my life? why do people keep dissapointing me? where the hell are my car keys?

sometimes i think becoming a hermit might be a positive step... but then i remember that longing feeling for someone to share my life with; realise that that person wost most likely not go into hiding with me; wonder if they would be able to stay interested in me and my alter-ego; and then i proceed to immediately become utterly and intensely depressed. the mental cycle of a lemming?